Often times the answer is within reach. The path right in front of me.
Yet, many times I still wonder what I’m supposed to do. I’m prone to avoiding what I know needs to be said or done.
Last week was rough… for so many reasons.
Did I reach out to my friends or family? Nope.
Independence. I can do this.
A friend finally pushed me into talking yesterday afternoon. And, not surprisingly, it helped. Then I spent some time listening to piano music and journaling and drawing. And I went and got some medicine for the sinus/cold thing going on.
This morning? I feel much better. Not restored to full health – physically, emotionally or spiritually – but at a much steadier place.
So, why do I wait? Why don’t I make good, healthy choices right away?
There’s part of me that likes to sit in the bleh of life. I’ve grown accustomed to the gloomy shadow place, and need to visit it every so often it seems. And, as a man I’m supposed to be independent, right?
Holy One, may I continue to push into more timely responses. May I reach out rather than isolate. May I seek You and seek to be changed by You.