[I apologize in advance for any mistakes. I’m realizing how terrible I am at putting off writing, so this is just going to happen without corrections]
Yesterday evening I’m starting to get tired because of the work day, and it’s getting late (for me, this means after 10). X, Y & Z get my mind wandering down dangerous paths, and I go to search for less-than-beneficial uses of my time.
Thankfully, over the last months (years) I have realized some of my triggers, moments in the slippery slope of temptation. By God’s grace I turn off the computer. But, going to bed I still feel heavy. The weight of how quickly my mind, my heart, turn to idols is left resting on me as I doze into a not-so-restful sleep.
Wake up this morning to the following email devotional:
Take advantage of every review of the past to remind yourself of the unbounded, limitless, and life-saving effects of the blood of Christ that was shed on Calvary for you. It would be a colossal waste to spend this opportunity on regret and self-denigration. This is a time when you can draw near to Me in genuine worship from the depth of your heart, says the Lord. Be thankful.
2 Corinthians 4:15 For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.
Well, that was timely.
Fast forward to my bus ride home from work. Another long day at a job I don’t fully enjoy. During my long rides I find my mind wandering again. I land on my to-do list for awhile, and start feeling pressure. Wander down a different trail and start feeling anxious about the future and new jobs. Get off the bus and feel overall down about myself.
Well, not wham, but maybe a block from my stop, a guy comes running up behind me.
Hey, you don’t know me, but my name is M_____. And this may sound weird, but I really felt like I needed to catch up to you and let you know that God loves you. Like, you specifically are loved by God.
We talk for awhile, but again, how timely.
So often I worry. So often I get lost in my own thoughts. I wonder how I will get things done. I dream about how God will be part of my future X, Y and Z. But here and now God IS. God is present and moving and GETS ME. This still blow my mind when I stop and think about it.
So, what’s God have right in front of you?